nemo

Nemo went to the Bridge on Friday, Nov. 11. His person wrote this before he made the trip:
Earlier today, Nemo and I walked through Hartley. It was a slow walk as he doesn’t move very fast anymore but nevertheless, it was a good walk. The sun was shining, the leaves have fallen and the fall air was surprisingly warm. Nemo and I have come to relish our small moments in time as both of us know our days together are numbered. As sad as it is, with each and every passing day, it pains me to see my Nemo’s inner light slowly fading away, as though someone is turning a dimmer switch lower and lower. There are times when I feel like I’m in a tug- of-war with life and death. I panic and pull with all my might – No, you can’t have him just yet! But then God pulls back and reminds me, “he was never yours to keep forever. He is here only for you to love for a short while.” I grieve a thousand small deaths of my old boy with each passing day . . . the loss of his physical health, his senses, his strength, his energy, his vitality, and even the spark in his eyes. Breaks my heart to suffer with him through so many small losses and to watch his health and spirit fade away. But this is the final battle . . . the one I know I cannot win. There is only so much that I can do and so much that I cannot do. What I can do is carry on with grace and dignity and all the love that has swelled in my heart these past several years to make his last days on this earth more loving and comfortable. What I can’t do is make him young again. Every morning we wake up to thank God for giving us one more day together. When the time comes, I will have to let my Nemo go, and he’ll surely take my heart and soul with him. I pray every day for strength for that final today and I will kneel in humility and gratitude that God ever granted me – me of all the millions of people in this world, the most precious gift of this sweet dog’s love for so many years. Nemo, my heart dog – my gift from God – You will be in my arms a short while longer but you will be in my heart forever.

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